Remembering Kade

Updated: Mar 24

January 22, 2021

Excerpt from my Journal

"Everything is falling into place. After 2020, it felt like everything had crashed and burned and I slowly had to build my life from the ground up. However, it’s finally clicking, I can feel it. I feel it when I walk into practice as I can genuinely laugh and joke with my coaches and teammates. I feel it when my friend group calls me to go do something totally ridiculous but I do it anyway because “Tenleigh, you HAVE to come it won’t be the same without you”. I feel it when I come home after a long day of school and sports and can sit down at dinner and talk to my family about all the great things happening in my life… I feel joy, endless and utter joy for this life that I am living and I am so thankful and blessed for it all."

January 25, 2021

Excerpt from my Journal

"Friday I was on cloud nine. Now it’s Monday and I just got back from my friend’s house as we all held each other sobbing trying to figure out when and how it all went wrong. In 3 days, I went from the happiest, most content person ever to the saddest, most heartbroken I have ever felt..."

It is crazy how much can change in a year. In 2021, I faced several trials that forced me to grow in so many ways. There were really hard times and really great times but it made me who I am today.

A year ago today I lost one of my friends, Kade Cooper. It was probably one of the hardest things I went through last year, if not ever. For a long time, I was both sad, numb, and in a very negative headspace.

Until one day I realized how much Kade would have been mad at me for being anything but happy and thankful.

From that day on, I decided to live for and like Kade. He was truly the most authentic person I had ever met. That was one of my favorite things about Kade. He had this pure, radiant soul and he was never anything less. It didn’t matter what he was doing or who he was with, he was still going to be himself.

Kade taught me how to be myself. He taught me how to not care what people thought about me. He taught me to live in the moment. He taught me how to be spontaneous. He taught me how to not have fear. He taught me how to put 100% into everything I do. He taught me so many things in life that changed my entire mindset and perspective on life.

It wasn’t easy and it wasn’t instant. For a while, it was completely fake. Until it wasn’t. I will forever be thankful for everything Kade brought into my life. Every laugh, every person, every moment, every shared conversation, everything.

I love you, Kade. Not a day goes by that you don’t cross my mind.

May 22, 2021

Excerpt from my Journal

"I told myself I could do it and I did. I won a state championship in the 400m. The feeling I got when I stepped up on that podium and received a medal for all the self-discipline and dedication that I had this season was worth every second. I remember looking down at the medal and just getting an overwhelming feeling of pure happiness…I am finally starting to be myself again… You never left my mind this entire season Kade. I did it for you! You are my why!"

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